Because I'm Still Made of the Same Material

I'm exactly the same person. I realized. No one ever changes what they are. The change is in form, not fundamental being. Therefore, there is actually a reason why I strive after that which I cannot and will never have. I'm starting to believe a new saying that's come across my mind.
Cogito ergo damno
Anyway, I'm glad to know I have a good established set of friends. And I love them all.
I love you, you, you, and you.

Yepp.

She doesn't like me. It's cool though, I decided to stay outta relationships for a while...
Siigh. And yet I still wish I could find somebody special.
I'm rolling through life too fast....
I can't believe the shit that happens every day.
I want people more to hang on to. I'm afraid life's gonna be lonely soon enough...
God. I must sound so depressed, but I'm not at all. I'm enjoying life so much. I need...to do more.
I need motion, in Life.

And....

I've had a revelation(s).
1st, that most everyone hates me at some point. It's just...natural?
2nd, Life is a theatrical production. And we have no choice but to be perfect for our roles in it.
3rd, never waste a chance to help someone. It's all we can hope to do in this life for others.
4th, ARS Rescue Rooter A/C's number is 777-7777.

Anyway, so...I made the best of the weekend. Girls and drank. Kinda stupid, and entertaining, at same time. Hopefully life can get progressively better. But eh, even if it continues going down, it'll go back up eventually. Also, I figured, I've gotta reach out to those people I feel are true friends, or should be.

In closing,
Seven Songs Slip Slowly Down Surry Street, Singing Sweet Secrets to Strangers:
Mexican Radio by Wall of Voodoo
Transitionz as a Ridah by MURS
Contramundo by Manu Chao (Live from Paris) ft. Radio Bemba Sound System.
The Battle of Evermore by Led Zeppelin
Red October by Mr Lif
Black History Month by Death From Above 1979
Have Love, Will Travel by The Sonics

Spelunking My Mind

Old flames, new games, act your age, cover up the hematophage.
No longer should you live, you have but one life to give.
Admit your love and be denied, at least you can say you tried
Nowhere in the book of rules, does it say there's room for fools.
Overworked and lazy as fuck, all you can do is pray for luck.
You don't make sense, youre awkward as hell, no wait, only time will tell.
Learn your place, hide your face, you won't get her, try to get better.
What's the matter, looking back on the blood splatter?
Can't you see? They don't want you here, better off next year.

Father, I Want to Kill You, Mother...I Want to....

Well. The weekend is come. And gone. I did not get to party, like I wanted, nor chill long enough with people other than my best friend. I slept until 1 PM today, around 4 this morning I took 4 Advil PM (double the recommended DAILY dose) and forced myself to stay up for the entirety of The Doors movie. It was a crazy experience. Before this though, was the highlight of the weekend. I found and viewed my Adventures of Batman and Robin TAPE. 2 episodes, Christmas With the Joker and The Laughing Fish, filling me with happiness, nostalgia, and memories of a slightly creepy childhood. It's a wonderful life. Not really, but let's continue.
I am gonna clean up my relationships. For good. I'm gonna be a better person. I'm working on it. I have to sort out who I just think is cute, who I like, and who is just teasing me.

Songs To Sit In The Dark Wide Awake And Think To:
The End by the Doors
Spoonful by Howlin' Wolf
1983(A Mermaid I Should Turn to Be) by Jimi Hendrix
Greedy Fly by Bush
The Battle of Evermore by Led Zeppelin
Save Us by Mushroomhead

Fly!

I wish I could. Would help out seriously. I need like Jack Jumper. One of those planes the Marines use.
Anyway, so I'm worried about grades. Still. Its scaring me :(
If I pull through I'm gonna work my ass off, and make sure that car is mine at Christmas!
Crappy dinner tonight. We warmed up frozen Chicken Cordon Bleu. Sigh. Life is odd and insufficient at the moment. I need. Energy. Sex. Entertainment. Fun. Tastiness.
Speaking of which, I want to go to a party this weekend. And one way, or another, I shall.

Movies You Need to Watch:
Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas
The Darjeeling Limited
RocknRolla
Cadillac Records
Citizen Kane
Apocalypse Now